Author Archives: beanyneamy

“It’s not like I was raped”

This is something I’ve been meaning to talk about for a while – but I keep putting it off. A select few in my life have been privy to hushed conversations and implied sentences, but nothing of depth, because honestly … Continue reading

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“I expected this of other girls, but not of you.”

Despite attending an all girls school, most of my closest friends have always been boys. It’s not for lack of trying on my part that I’ve a dwindling number of female allies -segregated all girls education for 12 years, playing … Continue reading

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Searching for Summer

My last exam was on the 17th of June, which I took seriously. If you count taking a two hour nap in a three hour exam as serious. Physics is not my forte, so I dropped levels on the day … Continue reading

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“An object of contempt, an object of desire”

My life revolves around physical objects. Judgements are made on appearance, but based on clothes and accessories rather than facial features or body shape. Self worth and confidence stems from the value of what I have, and is expressed through … Continue reading

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Dear 16 year old me

Hello! First of all, it seems like just yesterday I was 16 (clichéd I know!). I really can’t believe its been two whole years already, and I know these letters are usually written in 10 years time, but with it being … Continue reading

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School Conclusion

The biggest exams I’ve yet to face in life are fast approaching, and despite my multiple failed attempts I’m close to accepting the inevitable. In primary school I excelled academically. Then Secondary school hit me, and I was doing just … Continue reading

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Running to a Rainbow

It’s 11pm on a Friday night, I have a free house and yet I am snuggled up in bed like the good 18 year old that I am. Despite that being very much true, the reasons that led to me being wrapped … Continue reading

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